Pretty pointless.

Well, the week has been pretty stressful and busy, so this will be an aimless post just to pass some time.  I am currently working on a piece with some more substance...but haven't gotten very far as of yet.  Anywho...
Assclown has attempting to be social lately...with the "i just wanted to say hi" texts.  I can't help but feel that is so phony and pointless.  I am soooo past considering what we have is anything more than fuck buddy status...so its like dude-just hit me up when you are asking to come over.
Assclown hits me up Friday "What are you doing tonight?"
I hardly think that is any of his effin business!

Me: I don't have any plans yet.
AC:  I would love to do something with you tonight.
Me: Oh yeah, like what?
AC: Idk movies maybe,  it will have to be late night b/c I have the kids.
Me: Ok, thats possible.  How late is late?  Also, I would like to be upfront with you.  I had a procedure yesterday and can not have sex for a week.  I won't be mad if you dont want to chill, just keep it 100.
AC: What happened?  Are you Ok?
Me:  I had a biopsy, so if I don't have cancer, Im ok.  So are we hanging out tonight or not?

No reply for about an hour...

AC:  Oh shit, I forgot I have a family party in DC tonight, but maybe I'll leave early.

WHAT A FUCKIN DOUCHE!!!  THE POOR MAN CANT EVEN KEEP IT REAL!
WOMP FUCKIN WOMP



He is seriously not capable of just keeping it real.  I am realistic in the fact that all we really share is good sex, and that is the only thing I am ok with.  Why does he have to justify it more to himself and be phony to me?  I saw him the next day at a football event.  Our sons play in the same league.  We said hi, said bye and that was about it.  But why does seeing him bring forth thoughts about him?? That idea makes me want to throw up in my mouth a little bit.  He later told me that seeing me out and about made him "tingle."  He said his friend noticed his ancyness and asked who I was, and if he could find out.  He told him, "yeah, remember my outta town trips to see a girl..."  His friend replies "yeah, I would go there for that too.  Nice."  Thank ya very much.

  A friend and I went out for dinner and some drinks afterwards. I was such a downer, because I couldn't help but obsess on the fact that I was going home to an empty house.  I was upset with myself for getting a babysitter for the night simply because we had discussed possibly getting together later that evening. During a moment of weakness, I text him with a simple "yo".
He replied with "I cant do anything tonight.  Sorry"  Hmph.

On a side note...I went out with LegalAid early on in the week for some drinks and convo.  He invited me back to his place for a drink and I hesitantly accepted.   During the short ride to his house, I chanted to myself.  Be a lady, do not sex him, be a lady do not sex him.  It was actually really nice.  I didnt feel pressured at all.  We went as far as a nice kiss.  And it was super nice, I mean perfect rhythm, depth ect.  I was giddy like a freakin school girl.  I couldn't help but imagine that if a first kiss was that good, how great could other things be? 
His apartment was nicely appointed and spotless despite having young kids at home.  I used the bathroom through the master suite, and had a chance to be a little nosy.  Jacuzzi, check.  Closet? Business attired arranged according to color.  No trace of  female inhabitants.  Bed made, and looking super comphy.  I must have had a smirk on my face when I came out cuz he asked me what was on my mind.  The tipsiness we were both experiencing surely added to apparent sexual tension that was almost thick enough to be carved with a knife.  We ended the evening with discussing when we could get together again.  He said "you have my number, use it."  Hmm...
I took a chance later in the week on Thursday and asked if he'd like to do something.  He said that he had a real limited window of availability, so I told him to give me a call next week if he'd like to get into something.

LA:  Will do, have a nice weekend.
Me:  I sure will, you too.

So Friday comes around...and he texts me out of the blue..."Have a nice weekend."  I have a problem taking this at face value.  To me, it kinda says "dont call or text me this weekend," which I don't do anyway.  Could it simply be wishes to enjoy my weekend?  Maybe I am biased...I frequently come across losers who are unavailable.  I guess...time will tell.  What do you think?